Behind closed doors

That's me in the mirror, I see myself.

I seem to have come a long-long way.

I hide no longer, I cry no longer.

I still dream, though the dreams have changed.

I smile at myself, like I smile at the rest of the world.

Then I walk away, I get on with the day.

I have plans, I am busy.

There's life, there's work, there's people I love.

The day passes by, as if in a dream.

I am never still, not for a single moment.

I cannot take that chance, cannot let them out of those doors.

They nudge me every second of every day,

I just about manage to keep them at bay.

And so ends another day.

I lie down congratulating myself, a victory at last.

As I lay down the guards, in that moment of stillness, the defences are breached.

Everything comes rushing back.

I lose the war, yet again.

DAMN!!